December 14th

Today I did spend three hours at our local huge bookstore.
I also did run around antique bookstores, one was so cozy I could have stayed all night there.
*hahah*
Im feeling so comfortable when there is book around me.



At the moment Im reading Wonderful Today The Autobiography of Pattie Boyd by Pattie Boyd and Penny Junior.



oh, Pattie have had such a fascinating life.
She comes across free spirited and funny person, who have enjoyed every second of her life.


And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie is actually one of the best mysterie books I have ever read, brilliantly written and very exciting book! I was little scared while reading it. Remember the feeling that I could not let my feet hang over my bed, because there just might be someone / something under my bed to bite it!



Actually there is one book from Agatha Im wishing for Christmass, it is called



I must add that James Patterson has done some creepy thrillers also, my dad have like all of his books and Im allways borrowing them.

Umm. There are soooooooo many great books.
But what is my favourite? Gone with the wind ofcourse!
I really was so very obsessed over it while ago. It was insane.

The book that is my treasure must be The Audrey Hepburn Treasures by Ellen Erwin, Jessica Z. Diamond, and Sean Hepburn Ferrer.
I remember the day I got that book in my hands. oh, my hands trembled.
I LOVE IT, I love every single little piece of it. It is such a special book.




I adore her so much.

Im so into autobiography books, next I will read The Girl Who Walked Home Alone: Bette Davis, A Personal Biography by Charlotte Chandler.
She had tragic life and she was interesting person.




I found one new realise that I was imidietly interested of

The Shack by William P. Young




Mackenzie Allen Philips' youngest daughter, Missy, has been abducted during a family vacation and evidence that she may have been brutally murdered is found in an abandoned shack deep in the Oregon wilderness. Four years later in the midst of his Great Sadness, Mack receives a suspicious note, apparently from God, inviting him back to that shack for a weekend. Against his better judgment he arrives at the shack on a wintry afternoon and walks back into his darkest nightmare. What he finds there will change Mack's world forever. In a world where religion seems to grow increasingly irrelevant "The Shack" wrestles with the timeless question, "Where is God in a world so filled with unspeakable pain?" The answers Mack gets will astound you and perhaps transform you as much as it did him. You'll want everyone you know to read this book!


Also 2666 by Roberto Bolano interest me.






At the moment Im confused with all the books I love, the books I wanna read and finding new interesting books I cannot list anymore books, next post there will be more books.

*****


Last week I gave tons of my old (and very much not used) clothes, to my friends and work mates. Some paid me but I just wanted to get rid off the clothes so I do not care about money so much.

It feels so refreshing to give all that crap away. Not crap really, pretty good stuff but I just have too much that stuff *hahah*

My moving to new apartment is in coupld of weeks.
I cannot wate!!

oh and I have some huge bad virus on my computer, it seems like there is no way to get rid of it. Many people have tried, I mean they are such a computer nerds, they know everything about computers. and still they don´t know how to destroy it.

Im hopless, it feels so wierd without my computer, my love.

*hahah*


*****

Last few days I have been feeling pretty polished and lady like. Even thou I have not done anything special to myself...It migh be the new nail polish or the way I have done my hair.
Even at work I have been feeling better, because usually end of the day I look and feel like crap. Takking care of kids is hard job!

And today I wore my AA lame leggings and the cutest black dress and red / white striped top underneath. One of my friend said that I look cute. That allways feels good. It feels good that I have looked decent for some reason. Hope it keeps going, because I like the feeling.


...oh my that last writing was pointless.
But I just wanted to tell how good I feel :D


*****

oh and miracle happened. Other day I was buying huge coffee with my friend and that coffee maker boy totally flirted with me!!!!
and I flirted back wich is very unusual to me.
And later my friend went to toilet he came and gave new candle to our tabel and smiled me.
I smiled back.
Too bad there were smelling old eggs at the moment he was near me, hope he did not think it was me who smelled.


*****

That´s it.
Good night.
have a great Monday.
And have amazing next week.

P.s am I crazy but I really wanna own Britney Spears circus cd.
She allways brings my younger life to my mind.

December 8th

Im having a stress-free day!!
or at least Im really trying to.

Im concerating to happy and cute things.
Sounds child-ish but I just can´t handle another day feeling sad and stressed out.


THIS HEART TOPSHOP DRESS MADE ME SMILE!!!!
awww, I wanna it so badly. topshop.com did not have it anymore :(
i just had to make polyvore set about it *heehee*


heart dress by bettermet




MARIMEKKO.
Finnish design.
I love Marimekko. They allways have fun prints and fun shapes.

Some new ones designed by Samu-Jussi Koski.








This is lovely, designed by Mika Piirainen



I can pic some of these as my christmass present.
...Wich one to pick?
Or this pyjamas set.





how sexy...zzzz. It just looks so super warm.

Christmass is coming. What do I wanna to get?
Something from Marimekko, ipod...umm, striped long knitted scarf, pyjamas and some books. every CD from Kings of Leon.
Few DVD´s and few books. Cotton leggings and socks *hahah*


But what to give for friends and family?
I have not so much money to buy any gifts, but for my friend I made a cooking / baking book. I bought nice notebook and collected there some delicius recepties.
Hope she enjoy it!


That´s it from today :)
Im going to sleep now.

December. Seven. Sunday.

Im so fustirated at the moment...

I DON`T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED FOR MY LAST POST!!?!?!??!?
anyway, Im writing new post. repeating some from my last one.
But what happened???


* My roomies cousin and her boyfriend lives in our apartment. It feels so funny...it feels like Im guest in my own apartment.
What a awful feeling.

* soon to be ex-room mate made little gathering together for few of her friends.
Well, she did not tell me about it and I was not ´´invited´´ even tough I was home
in same room as they were but all of them were basically ignoring me.
So I wen´t to my own room and fell in sleep. Clock was about 7pm then.

* At night around 3 o´clock I woke up, they were leaving to bar or something...
I just couldn´t get any sleep. So I was cleaning my room, hanging with the kittens
and watching Mamma Mia! and still being mad about her child-ish acting...

I mean who would do that, just ignoring someone who is in same room, live under
that same roof? I could never do that for anyone.

* They left the apartment in huge mess... I did not clean anything.
They have to clean their own mess.

* December 6th was Finland´s independent day. I wen´t to grandmother´s place
and we watched the annual ball at President palace. Judging the dresses etc.
I was so sleepy and wen´t sleeping early. I love spending nights at my
grandmother´s place. There is allways so much food. Yammy...

* ...but she can be so annoying sometimes, thinking that I cannot handle my things
and do not take care of myself. I allways get fustirated when she is nagging all
those things. But ofcourse she does that, she is my grandmother after all.
Aren´t all grandmothers the same way? She has done so much for me, it feels
like I own her so much. When my family had hard times after my mom and dad divorce,
she was there, helping us.

* Also it is pain to see how her memory is not the same as last year...I don´t wanna
ever think she is old. She has allways been such a super woman and so close to me.
And Im allways telling her if something is on my mind or if Im angry I can yell at
her and she listens, after few minutes I call her and say Im sorry because yelling
for her, and she is like ´´nah, Im your grandmother it is my job to listen you´´.

Seriously, I don´t know what to do after she is gone.

* Im missing something. My head feels so empty.

* Im stressing about moving.

* Im stressing about money...

....Argh.... I really have to stop thinking now or I will get crazy.

****

After all that crap this made me happy:

Zooey Deschanel
Complex magazine outtakes







oh I adore Zooey. She is one of those persons who is just adorable. No matter what she wears she looks adorable.
and I really like that light shade of pink colour on her lips.
Might even try it myself!

...Since Im trying to find something new to my style.
Im happy the way my style has gone, simplyer...and I feel like I don´t have to dress like my friends (that feeling I had few years ago) or dress up for someone else.
Even tough my style is not so wild and out there Im dressing for myself even if I get comments like this:

´´you look too care free´´ as my friend say. WHAT?!?!?!? I did not understand that.

´´you could even brush your hair´´ as my father say.

´´please, wear some other cardigan, you have wore that for week now´´ as my grandmother say.

´´don´t you have money to buy decent pair of jeans´´ my co-worker said.
Because she thinks shorts belong to summer...and that comment was bit arrogant.

oh well, I wear shorts with thick black tighs...as do many other.
I rarely wear jeans. They are so uncomfortable and I never find good pair.
I have naturally messy hair no matter what I do for it.

Those all comments don´t bother me at all. It is my style and my life.
I could say some things about the way they are dressing...but why should I ? it is their life and their style, get it?

AAAANYWAY, I want something new to my style... It is not that I wanna new clothes, just little things that can make huge change like that lately I have done new things to my hair. I like it, the feeling that hair is out of my face feels wonderful.

Then I might just try that pink lipstick that Zooey have in those pictures^

and some jewerly and accessoriez shopping.

finding perfect faux leather jacket could do wonders too.

That´s all I need.

Keira has the most amazing style for fall / winter.
I love her. She really inspires me.

She has had many great red-carpet looks, but this is my all time favourite!
That dress is so cute, loved the way her hair was and that her nails were painted black.










from GLAMOUR magazine.





Last but not least.
JAMES DEAN was such a magical person.
He is one of the most interesting persons in near past.
Love all the pictures taken from him.










Pictures from adorevintage. thefashionspot.


p.s sorry for the thumbnails. I just posted so many pictures that I tought this looks more clean.

p.p.s sorry this was such a long post!!!!

p.p.p.s NITA I cannnot wate to see what you bought for me from London. Hope you feel better now!